HELL WEEK!

its a hell week for others because of loads of exams. but for me, its a hell week because of my 'sirang plakang' lola. Ever since mom left to India she did nothing but scold me and make sermons about what i did to myself and tells me of all the things that will happen to me in the future. She told me that i dont have anyhope of changing myself and this life i have right now is the end of evrything. Its so sad to hear for me becuae thats is not my pint of view. Thats not my pint of view in life and she just keeps on pushing me down, getting me in the nerves and makes me depressed and annoyed at her. I dont want to withdraw my respect from her but everytiome i go down stairs and see her she just starta all over again and says things that is not good for me. I know myself and I admit that im emotionally weak. I dont know why im like this but in some ways i know my grandma just wants me to face the raelity that made. Kung ako lng, alm ko nmn un eh, and im not forgetting all the mistakes and sins ive done. I also know for myslef that i am burden. I just dont know why is she so mad and make things look like a 'from d barrio' na story, n once u get pregnant at an early age it means u ended ur happy n succesful dreams. Hay nku, Putangina!!! di ko mapigilan! naiinis lng ako.. sumasakitn rin ang ulo ko i just thank gof that this week is almost ove.. isang tulog n lng.. and everything will be ok..